Chelinidea IDs
Hey, I need to edit an essay I wrote about identification of all chelinidea nymphs everywhere, but in case you were wondering about my reasoning for going through all IDs, just know that I plan on posting all my research and findings here. I know you may have questions, and I probably can guess them, but just know that I 200% will have answers for you soon, hopefully by tomorrow night, but probably today.
Full disclosure, this is really something that's absolutely consumed me in a psychotic way. I haven't been getting sleep because of my chronic compulsion to get everything sorted and answer every question I can about this one genus. It's like when I had to stop playing tetris so much a few years back, because when I tried to sleep, all I would see was blocks and pieces falling. Same with a nintendo game when I was 9~10 that I got hooked on. They became something that existed in my mind even when I didn't want them to. Now most recently, I can't stop seeing chelinidea nymphs in my head. I was able to stop playing fortnite because I felt like garbage wasting so much time on something that doesn't provide any benefit. This is different, because I tell myself it's important science. My medicine won't even help me right now. I know I have to regulate, but I can't bring myself to, because if I don't answer the questions, who else will? Perhaps I should take a break, because this is causing me physical and mental harm... I want to be more balanced. I only have a single friend, and she's across the country, so I don't have anyone to encourage me to get out more. I probably need to talk to my doctor. This is both exhilarating and inhibiting...
Till next time
- Sophia
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